I read a lot of blogs. They can be educational and entertaining. They are great when you are eating lunch at your desk, or bored, or looking for some bizarre tidbit like - how do you get gum off the dryer drum? I have even had a blog before when I lived overseas, to keep the info flowing back home to friends and family. The intent here is a bit different. I am creating this blog to follow my journey of creating a healthy body and healthy mind. I want to hold myself accountable to activities, tasks and actions I want or need to take to improve my life. I dont think I will share this with real life friends, as I am not sure I WANT them to know some of the things I struggle with on a daily basis, you know? sometimes better to leave them with an illusion, or maybe delusion!
While I am not in a serious fitness state, I sure could bump it up a notch. or 2. or 3? I could stand to lose ~10lbs. I can always add muscle. Well, its time to do it. Stop talking and just get er done! I dont want to do Weight watchers, or HCG, or Zone, or Atkins et etc...I just want to make good choices, watch portions and get my exercise in. So boring. But it can work, and it has before.
I also have a deep dark fear, that I really can't divulge to people as it seems so stupid. Well, I am going to get past that deep dark fear and conquer that baby. There is no reason to live life in fear and I am just done. I suppose if I am going to work on it I will have to reveal it?? in writing? on this blog? to be seen by real people who will think I am an utter dork? aack! ok. I (whispering here...) have a fear of driving on freeways. big sigh. I said it. Is that not so dumb? Its ok to say yes causes I think it is , too. How silly is that? I am a safe driver and am quite competent...been driving for years....um....25 to be exact. Now that is something to be afraid of too, saying I have been driving for 25 years? But its true, I do have it. Sometimes its worse than others. Some days its A-ok. Other days, ugh, a nightmare of tension, not breathing, feeling funny and literally shaking afterwords. So, I am going to get past this. I may not forget or have some perfect recovery where I never have a fear again, but I am going to drive whenever and wherever I want or need to go. So there.
Sounds like I have a lot to tackle, huh? working on improving my body and mind. I can do it. A challenge has always been a good thing for me, so here I am. I will chronicle the things I am doing to support my lifechanges maybe if people like you are reading, you will have some ideas to share, as well. I can't do this alone, as much as I would love to.
See you soon, as I have lots of ideas to get on the table!
You can do this! Go for it! And, it's not silly at all. Driving anxiety is so common that in many anxiety books it has it's own section or chapter. I'd love to keep hearing how you're doing!
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